phew.. today... nice day.. but now kind of damn DL loh..argh.. anyway.. it started off well.. and i was energetic but everyone seem so sleepy today.. den lessons not very interesting.. den i broke a testtube for the first time.. wah kao.. so suay.. also not my fault the testtube slide down out the peg itself de.. den i walk to lot one with joan joan.. laugh a little.. den pei her buy sushi jiu go meet dear dear le wee... den saw dear waiting at control station.. a bit pai seh le haha cause late liao aiyo That math teacher loh.. tmd.. eat my time again.. argh.. anyway kan dao dear very happy.. dear keep saying i very nice today peng peng.. we walk around.. in the end we ate pastamania wor.. wee o weet...dear eat ocean baked pasta.. me eat chicken bolognese.. den drink two ice lemon tea.. nice nice.. hehe den talk talk a while.. den we walk walk.. hehe den dear wanted to buy the minitoons piggy bag.. i know wor he gib excuse go toilet haha den i don let him.. dear ar.. out heart connect le.. i know wat u thinking de.. hehe somemore dear won't so bad leave me in shop go toilet de.. haha =p den also got buy foolscape from popular...dear help wo take.. so sweet..oh den i wanted buy jelly beans for dear.. cause that time like remember dear say cannot find le.. den i know uncle tibits got sell.. wanna buy for dear but he say don wan... = / den i bought yan yan and milo eat... den we went to cck wor.. walk a while also donno where to go le...den i bought lime.. we took 300.. den yi bian read i yi bian hug dear de arm.. hehe hao shu fu.. den i bring him go bball court saw 2 kss c boys.. den eat milo.. den wash hand.. den we jiu went to pasa malam.. weee... i bought kuey tutu.. den dear bought so many things for me.. omg.. haha really going to bei yang de fat fat liao.. cham cham.. must exercise more... haha.. den got two cotton candy.. got crab and chicken nuggets..got muah chee...got corn.. wah shiock ar.. thanks to dear dear.. hehe.. den i pei him wait for MRT.. den stand there miss 5-6 trains.. i think cause got yew tee de ma.. den got kiss 2-3 times haha wee... dear keep touching sayang wo de head.. kan zhe dear dear... wow! hao xiang ta now.. omg.. yi zhi thinking of him... dear dear going cine meet friends.. now with his friends.. den i doing hw.. den got DL cause of that sickening guy.. donno wat the hell he wans.. such a bastard.. argh.. oh well.. don wan angry le.. don wan dear sad.. now waiting for dear to come home.. miss him really lots... dear dear wo hao ai ni....................

2nd day of sch.. wah getting boring le.. fall asleep in physic sia.. stupid mr malek tok cock for 1 period T.T can't stand him.. den somemore damn long day.. three periods of math.. donno how to survive the rest or the term like that haha.. haiz.. den like o level listening and oral coming le.. kind of scare sia.. hm.. must jia you le.. aim for As.. keke..aiyo den went to buy foolscape also no stock.. peng peng.. well.. wondering how dear dear was in sch.. keep thinking of him.. den home le.. chat with him.. told him about today.. we talk a while.. talk about meeting tomolo.. wee hao happy hao qi dai yo.. so ong no see him le.. aiyo let him see i wear sch u peng peng... den suddenly dear there black out.. wah sian haha.. nvm pei dear sms..check news.. got a number of places black out leh.. den dear got light le.. but internet sot.. firewall sot.. so cannot online.. hm.. hao xiang ta.. muackz... see dear tomolo le..weee..hao ai ta.. hao xiang ta.....

today early morning get up le..den sms dear.. den he reply wor haha..hao surprise..cause he should be sleeping ma..den on bus met dao ah bird..den went sch together..den see my friends wee..den timetable sux leh..saw new teachers..quite a lot happen in sch la..den got grooming check.. teacher kpkb..boys all kena cuaght de all have to pay $10 shave botak haha tomolo go sch sure damn a lot botak de..lucky i never get caught phew..den finish sch went to mac with Joan and Bird..talk talk eat eat laugh laugh.. like so long no see them le.. haha..den jiu go home pei dear le.. told him everything that happen today..den chat chat.. dear going out le.. den got talk a while when he outside.. den watch tv.. see my seashells.. den put them in the box le.. weee.. now just write blog since nothing to do.. dear dear still outside.. hao xiang ta.. muack.. hao ai dear..

hm.. tomolo sch reopen le.. hao bu she de dear dear.. today whole day dear pei me.. he hao bu she de me go sch too.. lol..sian still got hw no do.. think tomolo go sch copy like siao le.. hope miss lim don check the eng.. lol..zz to think of it actually quite sian leh.. cause so fast going to oral exam liao.. den prelims den jiu o's le.. hao fast.. hao xiang go back zhou XMM haha...den dear say some stories today.. wee...wanna hear more.. haha lalalala... going to use my new pencil box... piglet! wonder if tomolo long day.. hao sian.. wanna pei dear.. den wash the sea shells today and put dry.. going to put them in the precious moment box.. have to sleep early.. odn think i can sleep so early.. hm.. must study hard le.. jia you!! dear dear ai ni yo.. muackz

music makes our world go round.. 

muackz!!! me kiss dear dear haha he surprise.. 

so sweet... the background suits where we went haha 

say cheese!! 

What a romantic day.. It was 7.52am when dear dear called wo up... so i lai chuang and got up at 8 am.. den went to brush teeth..got ready to go meet dear dear le..weee..den dear got to the CCK MRT station earlier than me a bit..den put his clothes into my bag..wee..CHU FA!! going to east coast.. in train bao bao..Dear wearing white collar shirt and op red shorts.. with a blue op slippers..hao hao hao ke ai..=D~~.. den reach le pasir ris we went into the mall and go toilet..den jiu went to NTUC wor.. bought.. Chipsmore..snickers.. M&Ns..green tea..den jiu make our way to the beach le..first time walk park with dear...den reach near the escapre there a bit lost.. walk walk around.. den i know where to walk.. while walking towards escape dear suddenly saw his friend.. I hao pai seh.. blush diao le.. den his friend ask him bu yao tie dao.. haha dear act tie dao.. so cute..den walk to the beach through a pathway like getting married like that.. haha hao funny..dear lay the mat and on grass.. den we sat there to see the sea.. It was quite early.. den sea was calm..so we sat a while.. eat biscuits.. den i lie down.. sun hao bright..i hao happy...finally can xin shang the sea.. den we hug hug and kiss kiss..wee... den lie on dear de leg hehe he use hang support my head.. hao xi xin..so sweet.. den a bit sad..cause got think of last time old de memories..dear let wo cry a bit.. den shu fu dou le.. den dear lie down.. so i lie also.. haha then we keep shooting ants haha.. Ant killer.. den lie on mat mat shui shui wor.. wah.. hao tian hao tian.. longest shui shui.. break record le haha.. =D~~ it was fantastic.. blush...look in dear dear eyes.. hao ai hao ai ta.. hao zhen xi ta.. felt really gald to have him by my side.. den after a while the waves got a little bigger.... we got up.. we went to pick sea shell and play sand wor.. dear pick many cute and nice seashell for wo.. each one means he love me 10 years.. haha so sweet.. den throw stone hao far.. i throw sea weed on dear leg.. haha..den the beach a bit dangerous cause got glass.. so i keep ask dear dear careful yo... pick a lot le.. we sit back on mat.. and move back a bit.. cause realise we very near the ant's nest haha.. use my water wash leg leg...den we lie for a while.. shui shui a bit more.. i lie on dear haha hao ke ai.. peep peep.. den dark clouds you come le.. so we decide to go walk walk.. actually wanna rent bike.. but a bit ma fan.. next time ba..den jiu walk walk walk..go toilet.. den we went to tea valley to eat wor.. dear order Orange black.. i order honey black.. both with pearl.. den we also order seaweed fries.. den watch tv and eat.. wee... den hao le.. we walk walk den see see arcade.. den make way to the mall again.. den walk walk got the bear bear dancing.. haha diao..den we went to tampanis mall.. walk walk.. went to a lot of shops.. den we bought two box.. precious moment de.. to keep our sweet neoprints and things..haha hao sweet...hold hand walk walk.. walk finish le we went to the pasarmalam.. bought kuey tutu..bought corn.. hehe wee!!..den we decide to go find the oz pple.. so we took train hug hug...den reach le a bit lost wor.. walk in plaze singapura a while.. den i stop dear from buying more food wahaha.. den we a bit lost.. dono call who hao.. den stand there a while.. den i say " we go down see see" scarli go down reach the place liao haha so funny walk so long cannot find.. den saw nova.. gone4eva..emmie.. dominic..and many many.. all playing Xbox.. den sign up for freebies.. den we zhao le hahaha... de went to causeway... we went to pak pool.. wee.. hao fun.. i won one match nia.. today no feng.. dear dear tai bang today le.. den kiss kiss hehe.. den went to take neoprint wor.. hao fun hao fun.. den we jiu go home le.. dear send wo to CCK MRT station.. we stnad there as usual.. den kiss and hugs.. miss le 7 trains.. shui shui le a few times.. hao sweet.. den so many pple keep walking past blush diao le.. hao pai seh.. lol.. den bu she de.. but have to go home le.. dear gib wo some chipsmore and snicker and the corn.. den i kiss dear good bye..dear got kiss my forehead today wor..hehe..den sms a little.. dear say its a great day.. wee so happy he enjoyed.. dear dear wo ai ni yo.. ni shi wo de zui ai... hao xiang ni le... sch re open den can kan dao ni le.. muackz.. now going to chat wib dear... must rest early! hehe wee... fantastic day...

Today whole day dear dear not home pei wo.. den me jiu spend my day at home.. morning meet dh actually at lrt take book...in the end i go lot 1 take from him.. sianz.. den go too early le.. food not open yet.. so i went to arcade play.. play all my fav games.. long time no play le.. yi bian play yi bian think of him.. wonder if he is alrite ba..den kind of sad..so i walk around...den go aries wan buy rubber band.. den went to buy duck rice for kor.. den no appetite to eat...den dh smsing me..also tring to cheer wo up.. came home.. chat with sharon.. told her wat happen..she ask wo zhen xi dear dear wor.. blush.. den jiu chat with dh also.. den do a bit of my compo.. aiya think i give up in my homework le.. so many.. do till pek cek.. den dear come home you go out le.. den kenneth also msg wo.. den he seem alrite i fang xin le.. but still a bit sad.. dono why.. but wei le dear.. trying not to be sad.. the whole day jiu shi like that le.. den pack bag for tomolo.. qi dai de yi tian yao dao lai le.. tomolo write long long le.. going beach wee... hao happy... dear dear hao xiang ni.... hm.......

today.. sort of make it clear with ex le.. i guess its over le ba.. wonder how he is doing.. don dare to msg him..dear dear accompany me whole day.. cheering wo up.. i cried till eyes kind of swollen le ba..hm..dear dear heart must be pain pain.. den aiya kind of sad loh.. somemore quite long de relationship..hm..he just upset me so much..den found out my friend also break le.. comfort her ba.. den realise zhi ji a bit sha.. but lucky still got dear dear pei wo.. hao qi dai saturday i wanna hear all dear de stories.. hehe actually this morning 12am+ dear got tell wo some hao ke ai de wor.. hehe but are mimi hehe wee...feelings now very messy but really glad to have a man who loves me and whom i love with me now.. to cheer me up and be there...xie xie lao gong..

today.. not much.. just very sad over somethings.. dono wat to write today leh.. haha so will make it short.. hm... not a nice day though.. just nice cause dear dear was there for me.. so sweet.. den me and him.. think going to break le la.. haiz donno la.. very difficult to tell him.. dear very worried about me.. and i sort of dui bu qi dear.. hao sad.. hao ai dear... hao qi dai saturday... T.T hao xiang bao zhe ni... kan hai...

i accidentally spoilt this hao tian de pic = /.. but dear kiss wo wor.. so sweet.... 

so cute!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha pinch dear 

yoz yoz yoz...ke ai ba.. 

weet o weet... hao dream land haha.. 

mei mei!!! hehe  

hao tian mei...  

today leh.. actually going dental myself de.. den while i was bathing.. i hen xiang call dear pei wo wor.. so i bath finish i ask him pei wo eat lunch den i go bishan meet him haha den dear agree.. i was overjoyed lol..den dental today very fast.. cause just make the retina den hao le.. den i took mrt to bishan meet dear.. i reach rite on the clock at 12 haha.. den saw dear dear.. wee.. den we went to walk walk in bishan.. dear ask wo watch movie wor so we went to buy tickets of Around the World in 80 days..wee...den we walk walk walk.. aiyo still got so much time..den while walking i donno when my bracelet drop wor..den bao bei wan go around find.. but find bu dao.. so forget it le.. haha den we went to eat Mos burger.. den i qing dear dear eat hehe we ate hamburgers share a large fries and a large lemon ice tea.. den we talk talk talk till donno the time den omg haha 10+ min late le haha thats us.. always late for movie de hahaha... den we rush then aiyo drink too much water so we went to the toilet first before going in.. den go in alot of pple le.. so we went to sit right in front.. den the whole row nobody only got lao gong and me..den jiu watch watch.. hug hug wee...hao shu fu..watch de shi hou keep got kiss kiss.. wee so happy haha like hao jiu no kiss dear le like that.. haha..hugging dear watch den i tickle dear on his neck.. but he not scare.. so i continue to do that.. lol den dear de hand hao cold.. so i held it and blew hot air...lol..dear look and wo and smile.. hao ke ai... show finish le.. aiyo me and lao gong also giddy giddy de.. den we went to use the toilet.. den oh hui jia le.. haha but dear say wanna take neoprint donno where to go take.. so we took MRT den decide.. go causeway take ba.. on MRT.. bao bao wor.. hao wen luan.. so shu fu... hen bu xiang fang kai.. wee...den reach le.. we went to take neo prints.. haha took a neo card.. den took the sticker de.. den aiyo not enough time den i accidentally destroy one pic haha cause no time to press undo.. aiyo.. hehe lalala...but it was quite nice la.. hehe lucky back ground all finish le..den dear jiu song wo to CCK...den hug hug.. kiss kiss... den reach le CCK MRT we didn't sit down like usual... but we stand up.. wah!!! hao shu fu de hugs... hao xiang hug home dear dear... haha he say i hen hao bao blush... den dear miss 3-4 trains.. we shui shui wor... hao sweet de.. sweetest of all... omg.. drool.. whole mouth kou shui le hahaha=p (o^-^o) den dear bu xiao xin touch dao den he OH very loud den blush haha aiyo silly de dear dear.. its ok to me de la i also actually never care until he blush haha hao ke ai...den dear went off after a very warm hug... i told dear only he can hug wo wor.. felt so belonged to him le... wee... wo men zhen de zhen shi le wahahaha its really a love day.. haha.. hao qi dai saturday.. dear go off le.. we sms.. den now he go orchard.. writting blog also.. hao miss him yo... dear dear wo ai ni.. i had a fantastic day.. hope ur is fantastic too...MUACKZ!!!!!!!!!!! Our days are always wonderful.

nite le.. going to sleep le.. the day ended sweet with dear dear with me... i know my past is terrible but with a guy who wans to overwrite all those.. i feel so happy... I'm a sensitive gal.. maybe.. i know i am soft hearted... i've got so much bad points yet.. i still can find someone who loves me so much.. who is so hurt to see me in such a pain... its not really worth it for him.. and yet he still treats me so well.. i feel so... so... bad...i wanna treat him with my best.. yet i kept hurting him only.. i wanna give him happiness.. really scare to pull him in to my troubles... dear.. i really love u....I'm sorry.. i know i am a very troublesome gal.. sorry for being so troublesome.. hugszz......

Couple Forever weet o weet..... 

pink pink hearts hug de hao tian.. our special day 

blush thats me kissing him wee!! 

haha hao colourful.. 

cute ma? wee nice nice pW and Eve 4 eva wee 

Today never sleep properly in the morning.. then 8.15 call dear dear up le.. den going out for bball with dear dear wor.. me reach lot 1 first den dear dear lai le.. den we took bus together for the first time wor.. take 300 around cck.. to the basketball court.. see dear dear play bball.. den i play with him.. hehe hao fun.. dear play bball hao shuai yo.. play for quite a while den jiu decide to go change clothes le.. den went to the stair case change keke.. hao blush.. back face back change.. den i change to jercey dear change to a sleeveless shirt.. den i tickle dear dear while he change haha den he "AH!" lol den we went to 7 eleven i bought momo peach to drink den he bought gotarate.. den we made our way back to the basketball court wor.. den dear dear and me start playing... den the other pple wan play 3 on 2 with us haha den jiu play play haha den dear dear and me and another guy one gourp vs two other boys.. den we won wor haha.. cause got me and dear dear ma...den we sat at the basketball court.. i lie on dear dear de arm.. den we see teenage magazine.. suddenly dear dear ask me " Zhou wo nu peng you hao ma?" i shock tio wor.. cause i didn't expect it to be so soon...i hao shy.. didn't know wat to say..while dear play with my hair and ask wo hao bu hao again.. so i smiled and said HAO! hehe den wo men kiss wor.. hao sweet.. i hao happy hao happy..den rest a while.. hug hug.. we went to take lift haha and change lol den we took the 300 one whole round back to lot 1.. let dear tour around one small part of CCK...den hug in bus.. hao warmth.. awhile jiu reach lot 1 le..den bring dear dear walk and take the lift behind.. we took to level 5 den man man walk down haha..bring dear go lot 1 arcade see see cause i hao jiu no go also.. den we went to third floor and walk.. saw the Mr Bean lol.. den went in to popular... see see look look.. den we walk to mini toons.. dear went to buy the piglet pencil box gib wo.. hao ke ai.. hao xi huan.. hugs.. den we went up to play pool wor.. play 4 games today.. den dear hao pro yo.. got jumpball and hit the ball in wah.. hao shuai =D~~ keke den he one turn go in 4 balls wor.. hao qiang ar.. thrash wo le haha den i also got improve a bit i think.. lol den we went arcade play a while.. play photo hunt... den i play super champ.. den we went to take neo print wor.. i saw my basketball friends haha peng.. den we edit hao long hao long edit till nice nice... den while i cut dear say wanna take one more haha so we took another and we shui shui wee... hao hao yo.. den its time to go home le.. aiyo hao bu se de... i pei dear dear take MRT.. this time i counted wor.. we missed...6 MRT trains haha wee... cause we hug hug dao she bu de fang shou.. hao lang man de yi tian.. dear made my day so so sweet.. i hao happy... dear leave le.. hao bu she de...den while going home sms dear dear...den reach home le.. dear dear call wo wor.. he say his results come out le.. den sound so happy must be very gd.. really hao gd wor.. all As hao bang.. hehe muack!!!!!!!!!!!!deardear... hehe den i talk talk and sing sing hehe.. den till here le ba.. later nite nite den add more.. =p LAO GONG!!! WO MEN ZHEN SHI LE!!! WEEE!!!! haha (o^-^o)

Today leh.. pei dear dear whole day.. its indeed a very nice day cause i felt so much closer to him..hao qi dai tomolo meet him wor...cause going to play bball with him.. wee!! deaer dear hao sha..bu zhi dao why he dui wo ne me hao.. den suddenly cause of ex de thingy dear dear hao heart pain.. kan dao dear like that me also heart pain.. bu zhi dao wat to do to cheer him up.. cause i very bad at cheering pple up de...sayang dear... the evening sky was beautiful.. reddish purple.. so lovely... everyone sot sot today de.. haha.. dear ar dear... wonder why u treat me so hao..i hao scare to hurt you... love him so much... hope tomolo faster come.. bball time... wee!!!!!!!!

20 june 2004...00:51:58 dear dear sent wo sms... he first time jiao wo lao po... wo hao kai xin.. donno wat to say wor.. i called dear dear lao gong for the frist time too...He said he will bring me to Xin Fu Che Zhan.. Bring me to an end where he zhe ge sha gua had built a hse just for me and him... i hao touched...wonder when would that come.. hao qi dai... Qid dai kan dao dear.. rang ta zhi dao.. wo hao xiang ta.. hao ai ta...

today was quite an alright day.. well not much to write.. but i spend the whole day with dear.. morning till afternoon keep fishing silk with dear... den ex got some problems.. den i was kind of fan.. den dear got tension de problem so i help dear dear.. he hao ke lian.. let tension say till like that i quite shou bu liao.. somemore say me and dear dear won't last.. hao hurting.. but don think he say de will come true..hm.. dear hao sweet.. pei wo one whole day.. den i play piano in oz.. wib dear.. hehe..hm.. we also got discuss abt monday meet de thingy hehe.. play bball with dear wor.. hao qi dai.. but i very lan.. blush hm.. hao xiang see dear.. hug him sleep.. hear the waves ar the beach with him.. wonder when that day would come.... dear wo hao qi dai...wo men hao close.. hao xiang nan nu peng you le.. blush.. i know we treat each other as wor.. just that haven zhen shi start bleah..hm... lalala go brush teeth =p

today.. whole day accompany dar dar.. hm.. he must be tired le.. cause got guni den he guniman7 hehe.. me pei him.. den morning we chat chat..just now went to dear dear oz de house.. he say he see his fruniture all gone heart pain wor.. but dear me still here hehe..we will create a nice house together... just u and mi... today leh.. think about quite a few things wor.. tot about wat if sch reopen.. dear hui bu hui drift apart from me.. dear say won't de.. me afraid wor.. cause to me.. this kind of relationship quite difficult to maintain wor... but i will try my best de.. cause dear dear means a lot to me...hm.. den i tot abt him going army wor.. sot le.. lol.. today.. quite a nice day ba.. spend it with dear...just now guni.. me log in acc trade wib dear.. hehe dear also tired le.. me help dear massage wor.. den tmm there.. den pple ask us odn tmm there lol.. hao funny.. i feel so close to dear le...hao qi dai see dear.......

today morning go bball.. wah nobody de.. so sian.. kept thinking of dear dear.. hao xiang ta.. den started bball le.. coach don let us play so i be referee den sit there sun tan.. haha blow whistle also no sound.. zhen dui lian =p first time wor.. den keep asking wat time le.. haha run and check lucky the game end in time.. den i ran off to mrt station and took a train to meet dear..quite pai seh cause wear jercey.. den tie hair look weird weird de.. dear hao ke ai hehe no comb hair de ta.. wo hao xi huan hehe...muackz.. den we walk walk in yishun.. den i thirsty so went to buy pink dolphin from cold storage.. dear qian wo de shou.. we walk le whole northpoint wor.. den hao bored.. i scare dear hungry so suggest to go buy a bit top eat.. den buy old chang kee de thingy eat eat.. dear dear worried wo.. didn't wan me to go to his house..but me ask dear dear don worry nothin will happen..so we hold hand go up mrt wait for train.. dear hug hug wo.. hee hee.. got quite a lot of pple.. but we still hug hug tian mi mi.. hao sweet.. miss three trains den take the 4th one hehe.. den in mrt.. dear hug wo hao warmth wor.. me hao xiang cry.. cause keep thinking.. wan yi dear dear bu yao wo le how.. den you dian sad.. kept looking at dear dear.. hao bu se de let him let me go.. i wanna hug him forever and be his till old old..i you happy you sad.. donno wat was going on.. den tears coming down le.. so quickly rub eyes.. den nose like got water coming out haha so i sniff sniff.. dear dear tot i nose block.. keke.. den cck so fast reach le.. we sat at the bench there and miss a lot a lot of trains... dear dear hug wo hao tite hao tite.. me hao kai xin.. got dear pei wo.. but i scare i would break his heart.. den donno why i cried on dear dear de shoulder.. hao pai seh wor.. but that time i didn't care much.. just felt so warm.. you dear bao zhe wo.. an wei wo.. i don dare show dear me cry cry de face.. scare he heart pain.. so i use towel cover.. he keep asking me look at him.. so i wipe dry dry le den look at him.. looking into dear dear de eyes.. i told him i hao ai ta.. we bao bao very long.. dear dear don wan let go of wo.. he told me.. no matter wat.. he would always be there for me.. i make till dear dear de shirt wet wet.. hao pai seh..den dear dear hen sweet.. keep sayang wo..from that moment.. i really felt how much dear meant to me..i know i really serious with him.. and so is he..can't afford to lose him...he kept hugging wo don let me run haha.. den even wanna dance tango lol... den make me lie down.. haha look like baby like that.. we shui shui wor.. then got one shui shui hao hot wor.. hao hot hao hot.. didn't wanna stop but at public later pple see see see lol so i stop.. but hao ke xi.. wo hai yao!! =D~~ lol den i held dear hand and place it on my heart..his hand hao warm.. hao shu fu.. want him to feel my heart beat.. me look at dear dear and told him.. wo ai ni... really mean it wor.. hao serious de wo ai ni...dear dear going home le.. i hao bu se de... see him go into train you feel like crying le.. we gave each other flying kiss and catch in and put in to heart..felt as if dear dear de heart shi wo de heart.. kept thinking of him.. so when i went to lot 1 i decided to call him.. hehe gib him a little surprise.. keke.. he sound so cute.. den pei him talk a while.. dear hai shi dan xin me go his house.. so i ask him not to dan xin.. den after going to his house.. go home le.. den chat with dear.. told him what i did in his house.. dear heart hao pain.. me sayng him..i scare dear bu yao wo.. cause i you dian tai shui bian.. blush.. dear dear.. wo bu neng mei you ni.. really donno wat to do without u.. later dear dear going out eat dinner.. will miss him a lot wor... hm..wonder if he would miss me too... hao xiang mei tian pei him.. mei tian make dear happy happy.. rang ta he wo yong yuan gou zhe kai xin de re zi... hao lang man.. dear wo ai si ni le...... I wanna be the girl of ur dreams and heart..u r my one and only one.. wo yao dang ni de nu peng you wor... blush.. zhen de hen serious wib u..

today leh.. i don feel like writting much.. sad cause of many problems.. happy cause.. i realise dear dear hao guan xin wo.. hao touched..keep thinkin of dear dear now.. tomolo going to meet him.. wee... wanna hug him and tell him how much i love him.. ai qing de mo li!!! keke wee.. dear... so much to say.. fishing perch wib dear dear.. dear cheer me up today.. he basically just made me so touched.. oh well.. hope tomolo is nice day...

aiyo deco half way de.. but quite nice.. 

huggies again.. we're so sweet.. 

weird pic cause my eye open big big lol  

huggies wor.. nice nice 

haha my teeth!! 

Wee.. today take out my braces le.. after 3 + years.. haha so ma fan still need go Xray.. somemore so ex.. den i meeting dear dear at 12.30 but i late wor.. cause the doctor loh went missing.. haha..aiyo feel that wear braces nicer leh lol..den no wear very weird..hm..den dear wanna play hide and seek wib me wor.. but i a while jiu spot dao him.. we met at somerset MRT station.. We walk to Cine wor.. den went up.. held hands.. bao bao.. hehe so sweet.. den saw angelmelody..den went to eat burger king wor..first time ate at burger king with dear dear..he bought the puss in boots de cushion ga wo.. first gift from him.. blush hao sweet..he also pinch wo wor lol..den dom call say he upstair le so eat finish went up lan shop saw jess.. and dom kor.. and sadboi..blah.. den sit there see pple playing bowling..wait for pool to open.. den we went to play pool pool.. today hao hao wan... haha play pool till very happy.. den dear even kiss wo at the pool there.. blush...hao happy.. play le we went to walk walk and shopping haha..went to level 2.. wash hand.. den i saw my friends.. lol.. they like got zhu yi dao i no wear braces le haha=x den jiu went to take neo print wee.. so happy.. got bao bao de.. hehe blush.. den cut neoprint hou we went to heerens walk.. i bought a basketball pin.. very cute.. first time got a guy pei wo see gals clothes.. blush.. hehe hugs dear tite tite.. hao zhen xi ta..i bought a D.P.O de shirt.. very cute de.. dear dear pei wo..hm.. hao lang man.. hug and walk and kiss hehe blush.. den we went to take MRT to causeway point..on the way face to face hug wor.. hao sweet...dear whisper wo ai ni to me.. i hao happy.. hao xiang say too but too happy le.. so wait a while.. relax.. den i said to him..den when reach le.. went to library den i pay fine.. borrow book..dear hug wo.. den i finding the title at the computer there.. aiyo me hot hot de haha cause dear dear make my ear blush blush...(o^-^o) den jiu quickly go find book.. haha den i call daddy.. daddy say ownself eat dinner.. wee can pei dear more le.. den we went up to Tom adn Stephaine..walk walk awhile..dear say wanna try carry me.. OMG!! lol i say i so fat blush..den he see nobody he try carry wo up wor haha so funny..den he carry wo wor..hao jiu no bei carry up le haha dear hao ke ai..den he say later take neoprint wanna carry me take.. lol..den sing sing in the shop..Can't help falling in love with u..blush..den we went causeway shop.. i bought a mouse pad.. cause my old de spoil spoil le.. wee... den also went in Seiyu.. see see shop shop.. lalala.. jiu go take neoprint.. wait very long wor..den our turn le wee!! den dear carry me up and take wor omg!! haha so funny.. den got hug hug de and many more wee!! den jiu decorate half way no time le so sad... hm.. so sorry wor.. spoil the neoprint.. den dear dear say nvm.. we shui shui wor.. hao sweet hao sweet.. hao hot wor hahaha=X den jiu wanted second time while the neoprint come out but half way someone accidentally open the curtains omg.. so paiseh.. blush diao so i just hug dear.. den neoprint come out le.. den jiu wanna go buy drinks.. went to cold storage.. haha blush diao cause kan dao Cs lol peng remind dear abt wat he saw yesterday while finding his cream lol.. bought lemon tea den we share.. den jiu quite late le.. so we go home.. den take MRT hug hug.. den reach cck sit and wait for the train train.. we got shui shui dao.. hug hug.. hao warm hao warm.. hao bu se de let go.. feel like crying wor.. cause its such a sweet day.. hao touched by bao bei.. sob..he also say wo ai ni wor.. me say to him too...hao lang man... den he kiss my forehead..blush.. he go in train train.. i gave a flying kiss.. he gave me one.. i catch and put into my heart.. hehe hao sweet.. hao xiang let him bao hui jia haha..=p so i went home half way.. dear dear say i am the first person he kiss on the forehead..hao honoured yo.. hehe saw aunt and baby.. den went home le.. keep thinking of dear.. donno wat to do.. wonder how he is.. how he felt.. and every every thing... hehe now chat wib him.. hehe hao xiang thank him a million.. wo hao ai ta..wonder how he felt..how he think about me..Oh and dear dear whole day keep saying i hao ke ai.. haha den i blush quite a few times wor lol hehe.. wanna hug him sleep sleep keke wee.. wonderful wonderful wonderful day!!!!

today morning get up go bball training le.. den i see c boys play against hua yi.. so exciting.. den think of dear dear.. actually brought hp to sch so can call dear dear haha den i sms him we chat den he wake up le wor hehe hao xiang ta.. den jiu sms quite long.. den meet ex.. den jiu walk walk.. bought something for dear.. now start doing le.. wonder when den can give him.. hope he likes it although i not very gd at it.. oh well.. den we chat chat chat.. hehe den i tell him quite a lot about me and ex today again.. den he pei wo.. so sweet.. muackzz ai si ta le.. den talk some funny thingy from teens magazine.. haha sensitive topic wor.. blush.. know dear a bit more le haha wee... den jiu chat chat abt tomolo.. i got dental wor.. den maybe taking out.. den can meet dear dear le.. weee!!!!!!!!!! Hao qi dai.. ao hao ai ta.. Xi Wang Wo He Ta De Gu Shi Si Wan Mei De...... Hao Xi Wang..

hm.. today.. morning call dear dear up.. he going to sentosa wib his friends.. dear dear hao ke ai.. sound so cute..hm.. den i continue to sleep about 11 plus get up.. hao bored.. whole day do nothin.. den sms dear dear.. den do a bit homework.. den my ex kp wo.. say i make him damn du lan.. mummy also kp wo.. hao sad.. den dear call me to cheer me up.. hao sweet.. hao gan dong.. hao xiang bao zhu ta ku..Maybe this is fate ba.. rang wo yu jian dear..let him teng wo..Maybe fate thinks..wo he ex bu gou pei ba..but to say the truth.. really dono how to let go..softhearted de wo.. keep thinking zi ji zou cuo le hen dou..one of my friend told me.. give kenneth up.. go with peiwei.. i know.. but i feel that.. i rather not hurt someone who loves me so much.. really scare will hurt dao dear..listen song.. sing song.. think of dear dear.. i read blog again and again.. his.. and mine.. even his old blog.. did many friendster de survey.. the day pass just like that.. waiting dear to come home.. headache whole day.. hm... tomolo go bball le.. hao xiang jian dear... hao ai ta.. ai dao bu se de shang ta...

today afternoon write blog le.. well today not much ba.. but i chat with dear the whole day.. i feel hao xiang my heart taken up by him totally le.. maybe it isn't time to really be with him.. but.. really hao xiang shu yu ta de.. blush..he rang wo hao kai xin..hao jiu mei you na me kai xin..I like never even ne ma kai xin gou.. i donno how to measure happiness but.. i really put my trust in him..trust that he would give me happines..but you dian troubled..cause i really donno how to put to stop a 4 years relationship..dear hao teng wo yo..pei wo whole day.. know wo sick hao caring.. dear also must take care cause he getting sick..me love sick ba.. blush.. hao qi dai next meeting with him..den we chat in the hello..shower each other with never ending smiles and hearts haha so sweet.. fishing.. dcing.. lol many many.. den go see wedding.. i call him.. i sing powerpuff gals song hehe.. dear hao ke ai.. wo hao ai ta.. wonder when would he belong to me.. hm... dear wo hao xiang ni...

15/11/03- first know dear
08/03/04- first time i call him dear dear hehe blush
26/04/04
19/05/04
22/05/04- We met for the first time at causeway
02/06/04- we watch 1st movie that is sherk 2.. first time play pool
09/06/04- first kiss...first time at cine
11/06/04- 1st time hug in movies.. first time at bishan with him
12/06/04- first time i call him.. and said wo ai ni to him.. blush..
17/06/04- felt hao close to dear.. first time i cried on his shoulders.. first time went to north point with him..

this one cute cute got so many fruits dear smile till so tian hao ke ai.. 

yesterday take de.. hao sweet yo.. this one 1st one got 2nd one yo 

another pic of dear.. he just finish eye check sayang.. 

this is my dear dear wearing spec hao ke ai yo... 

dono why suddenly feel like writting diary.. hm.. i feel bad.. donno why suddenly feel so bad.. kept thinking of how i treat dear dear.. ming zhi dao got ex le hai keep wanna be with dear.. hao selfish de wo.. if dear know i always go his house he sure very sad de.. haiz but i donno wat to do..ever since i know dear dear hou me don go his house often le..i also donno why wor..maybe cause i really love dear ba.. its seems difficult and not worht it to give up a relationship which has gone through 4 years just for a relationship that has not even started.. but.. i really really tot of letting go the 4 years relationship..moreover everything doesn't go well with him lately.. the way he treat me.. although i used to it le.. but i really bth loh.. dear hao weird.. i know he is hurt.. i donno wat to do to apologise for wat i have done..but i really don wanna lose him..time really means a lot..love hao weird.. really hao weird..i really wish to find someone who can love and care for me..i know everyone wans that kind of guy.. i am scare of having to repeat history.. all those threatening.. i don wanna pull another guy down into the picture.. but dear.. he seems very willing to go through everything with me.. i feel bad.. i really don wan him to go through pain with me.. cause i feel that he don't deserve ir..i lied to my ex..about the sms.. i know he doesn't believe me.. but i lied..again.. not because i still wanted him.. but i didn't wan another dH..i need a moment which i can spend with him.. and state things clear with him.. the way he treats me and everything.. i wanna let him know how much i suffer and how much i feel like leaving him..but i donno how.. totally clueless..i don wan to dui bu qi dear..i feel bad..whenever i go to his house nowadays.. i really feel bad..

today morning call dear wake up at 8.15 cause he going for bball.. den i got up at 9.45 and went to prepare to go out with him..everything so fine.. den i was a bit late cause wait mrt long long.. den dear wait for me.. he held my hands while we walk walk in junction 8.. went to buy movie tickets.. watching mao mao po de.. wee... den we went to walk walk.. walk ar walk see many cute things... dear hao sweet..wee..den we went to buy mos burger.. i bought prawn dear bought burger.. hehe dear hao ke ai yo..he no comb hair hao cute.. hehe den we went for movie.. watch movie that time eat eat things den dear help me clean mouth.. blush.. so sweet of him.. den hold hands and hug hug dear watch movie.. i feel so warm wor.. den got one part i shock tio haha dear sayang wo.. hm.. den kiss kiss so nice.. tian tian de.. den hehe got some sweet nice french kisses.. i hao tou ru yo.. didn't wanna stop lol blush.. watch finish we walk awhile den went causeway point.. but the arcade nothin to play so went to play pool.. dear play pool hao shuai yo.. me =D~~ le.. me keep seeing dear shoot.. hao shuai.. feel like going to hug him.. den take Qu Wen as excuse =p..enjoy playing pool wib dear.. first person i play pool with wor.. hao hao zhen xi.. den we went to take neo print again!! wee!! hao mei yo.. nice nice.. can't stop looking at it..dear song wo dao cck hug hug.. den sit there dear kiss wo.. so sweet.. hao bu se de let him go.. he hao cute.. stand at the door keep waving.. me also bu se de see him go so i keep turning and peeping at him go.. hm.. after that sms wrong person.. lots of things happen.. i say out things i yin man dear.. i hao bad.. but dear no angry nor hate wo.. so weird.. hm.. me feel very bad.. but he keep cheering me up..he hao zhen xi wo.. wo hao ai ta.. just finish trading guni.. dear hai shi ne me ai wo.. sob dear.. xie xie ni.. wo zhen de dui bu qi ni.. rang ni shang xin le.. i bu se de lose u.. sorry for being selfish... love is selfish de = / dear.. wo hao ai ni.. hope never spoil ur mood today...

yeah its a nice and romantic day today.. dear dear went to eye check wor den i went to sch.. den come home wait for dear dear call den he call.. hao ke ai.. hehe den he sent me two pics pics hao ke ai yo..pinch.. den tomolo going out with him wor.. going to write long long tomolo again omg wee!!!!!!! hehe wee wee wee!!! so happy to have him by my side.. den i made him fly just now.. donno why suddenly i got quite nushy den started saying words.. but all came out from bottom of heart de.. den fish crabby for event whole day..hao xiang hug him go sleep sleep.. dear wo ai ni yo hope u have sweet dreams.. hao qi dai tomolo

sweetest of all.. hao ai ta... huggies...