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Monday, July 31, 2006

To ratify wat i actually meant for my previous previous post.. A is someone who leaked out the secret and will never gonna enter my life again... Wat can i say... A is such a bastard that HE IS SO INSENSITIVE TO WAT OTHERS THINK.... If s ever happens to him.. i would be glad that he knows how i feel now... SECRETS ARE NOT MEANT TO BE TOLD... NO MATTER WAT.... and u leaking out to 3 pple is already enough!!.. u can block me all u want.. cause i won't unblock u either... A shall vanquish from my world... cause u have been hurting me so much u never tot abt it... u say words that have never gone through ur head..... If u really do care.... at least... think abt how i would feel before saying out the secret..... u fuking humiliate me....

For B... I just wan to say that there is no need for u to be here for me... i won't wan to owe a favour nor do i wan to have anything to do with u... There is no need for u to know abt this secret so just forget abt it or keep it with urself... I got nothing to do with u nor vice versa... Once bitten twice shy... You don't wan fake friends... so do i.. Carry on with ur life and u can forget abt this " fake" friend of urs.. cause thats wat u have always considered me as... Don think u ever even treasured.. so y bother to help now... don try.. its just so fake... u can push me to a friend just like that... wat else can u not do... oh please... stop being so fake urself if u really think everyone else is fake.... u left the best and worst memories of this period of time... i don't think u would even feel the pain nor know the meaning of... " Losing a friend is much more painful than losing a partner.." you will never understand...

To pple.... everyone has to go through bull shit in life... so many bull shit that u might step on and have a terrible time washing it off... well that is life... pple behind ur back.. saying bad abt u... they might just be ur greatest pal... u never know... they might just be the one who would cause and entire group to go against u... u never know.... all because they have a greater influential power than u do... true friends would go through all kinds of bull shit with u... they make sure they step the bull shit with u and clean it off together with u... or they just take a tissue and clean it off with u no matter how smelly it is..... a small quarrel will never change the whole friendship upside down... because they know how impt each other is... they know that no matter wat.. nothin can change their friendship... and they really do care for each other...

letting u go was a right choice since u never looked back and u r happy with ur life... i am glad i wasn't in ur life anymore..

writtern @7/31/2006 09:54:00 PM

i need you..

Sunday, July 30, 2006

i need you now... really need u.... where r u......is there so many things more impt other than me now..... i really need to hear u.....are u just trying to FU YAN me....... i've been waiting... i can't hold my tears for so long... how long do u still wan me to wait.... when are u going to call me back......... i'm in pain.... do u care....................??????
pls....... u r just making me feel so lonely when i needed u the most..... haiz.... maybe.. things aren't suppose to be well for us...... sometimes i just feel like the last thing in ur list....... really....
fuck... i feel so fucked up now...................

writtern @7/30/2006 09:38:00 PM

hard..

i've been very troubled lately...

been trying very hard to study.. but things just not getting better...

emotionally and physically in pain... y can't i study well and concentrate well... its really tough... i really feel that i am giving so much trouble to pple... that those who knows me are all getting troubled cause of me...

i don wan u to regret knowing me... u;m sorry for being so problematic... i dono y.. maybe its just my life...

i just love being alone.... but i hate how pple look at me when i am alone... wat wrong with being alone... at least i am strong enough... how abt those pple who gave me that look... i guess they can never be alone.... its not as easy... but its just much more peaceful....

If u think u are helping me by leaking secrets... fuk off man.... and if u think that i care ur words abt not blaming him... u fuk off too man.. i won't wan any help from u cause u r never gonna enter my life again...

no matter how much u care... u will never know how i feel abt u leaking secrets... fuk .... i am so piss... get away... cause i am so disappointed with such friends who are selfish and insensitive... not thinking about wat to say even before u say it... u only have urself in ur world... and no one else... so don think that u did the right thing because nothig u do is rite for u hurt me again and again... ffuck off....

someone motivate me to study pls..... i don wanna flunk another major exam... T.T

writtern @7/30/2006 09:08:00 PM

mac

Sunday, July 23, 2006

Mac has officailly become a mugging place for me and dar.. booo hm.. its really not a bad place to mug except for some irritating pple sometimes who will come and go..

today we ended out study session early.. went to BP together for the first time... and den we walked to ten mile haha.. dar first time go there.. lol... den we took LRT home.. and we slacked at PG.. hm... haha.. weee omg.. we played catching... and we totally tired ourselves out.. haha but it was real fun!! really very fun.. and dar said a very sweet thing... its about when we grow old.. and we still doing this.. even though we will not be running as fast.. haha.. i cannot imagine how i run when i am old old old!!! lolx.. maybe i'll catch up with dar? haha..

sa yi po kick the bucket.. hm.. rest in peace...

pple pls don smoke... its really bad for health and it stinks like hell.. and it just causes a lot of complications to ur body.. and especially even when u going to have children.. oh well.. stongly against smokers..

writtern @7/23/2006 01:36:00 AM

brighten

Thursday, July 20, 2006

just to brighten myself and this blog.. here are some long ago pics which i finally uploaded them..

Its us... haha.. wearing the same cap and with my new specs.. smiling so sweetly... yeah!!

Dar was at 50% offer when i bought him!! hahaha... kiddin hehe

Its us taken at science centre... =) first trip there... taken on 1 july 2006

last of all.. the beauty fire works at lot 1... got to capture only a photo of it cause it was too bright.. haha...

writtern @7/20/2006 11:52:00 PM

hope..

guess i am very stress up now.. tihngs aren't being the way they should be and its really freaky...

all i can do now is hope..

been very tired easily these few days... life is hard... i mean.. JC life is hard.. yup... oh well...

shall be prepared for the worst... every single day is passing so fast and scary... pls slow or turn back time.. haiz....

i know u r there for me........ i'll be strong... but now.. the best is to stay optimistic... and strong.....

i just wan to relax for a while... and hopefully just relax.. ya.. i need some rest... and hope and peace... oh well......

writtern @7/20/2006 11:48:00 PM

woohoo

Saturday, July 15, 2006

its been so so so long since i blogged.. anyone miss me? haha.. hm.. lets see.. been doing quite a lot of stuff and busy catching up with work.. yup.. sch.. suckx.. haha..

yesterday went to watch pirates of the carribean.. hm..its actually a nice show.. funny!! but!!! the ending sucks.. it leads to part 3.. kind of felt like doing a better ending for them.. and wats up next.. spiderman 3 is showing next year may.. haha.. hm.. wat shall be the next movie then...
that day watched campus ghost story at causeway point with dar too.. haha.. its ok.. not that scary.. but quite cool.. haha.. yup.. been quite a movie week.. weee we love to watch movies together...

well today.. dar and i studied at beauty world mac... ya.. its a special day today.. a little scary though.. haha.. should i share it here? lol... i guess dar was so scare he totally felt butterflies in his stomach.. he went to shit even.. lol.. cute... but its a quite ok la.. the dinner.. lol.. yup.. though the food was ok only... but its the first time.. haha.. sis told damien that next time the car no more space for him... damien tot it was my da sao going to have another baby!! haha.. so funny lol.. yeah.. it was an enjoyable day...

yeah monday no sch for me.. weeeee!!!! hehe.. study study!!! don wan to be behind anyone!! hehehe... jia you!! i can do it.. weee

writtern @7/15/2006 10:30:00 PM

just my luck

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

3rd july.. went to watch just my luck with taz at JP.. its been a long time since i went there.. It was youth day.. yeah!! had a day off...

4th july.. went back to sch after exams... very worried about my results.. don't think i will do well for my chem and math..

5th july.. boring... sch is getting so so so boring.... i fell asleep during chem lecture.. was too tired... my germany is out.. boohooo... stupid italy... nothing much happen.. didn't watch garfield 2 today.. ate KFC... thats about it.. home early.. yup!.. forgot to go to the optical 88 to complain about my contact lens.. boring... don feel like studying... tomolo is going to be very very very boring... cause its gonna be monday time table... means i finish at 5.10.. boohooo argh....!!!
don wanna get back my exam papers... haiz......

writtern @7/05/2006 05:50:00 PM

3rd month

Monday, July 03, 2006

yesterday i slept at 5.. haha.. terrible.. wooo wee brazil is out all thanks to aundrey... france is in... germany as well.. haha.. yeah.. =x got up at 10 plus.. den went out with my family to race course road to eat... yup.. den went to great world to walk.. haha.. and got dar something cute for our thrid month.. its a little bear with the date that we started.. hehe.. =x and i made him a card its a very simple one thuogh.. den i went to lot 1 to buy envelope hehe =x oops and met dar.. we walked around.. i rented Big mama house 2 to watch at home... and bought fool scape paper... wa it scratch me and dar's legs badly.. haha.. yeah.. tml.. got movie to watch.. and pei dar study hehe.. weeee jia you dar for ur physic S...

writtern @7/03/2006 02:33:00 AM

sci centre

Sunday, July 02, 2006

yeah.. its been a long time since i went science centre... i remember the last time i went there was to do the gel electrolysis.. haha.. hm... today met dar after his tuition... den tot he wanted to study.. in the end he didn't wan to...and den i suggested sci centre.. haha..
we were playing in the shop.. wow its a nice place to buy cool presents.. haha.. hm.. den we played around outside with those kinetics stuff... yup.. den we went back..
we played pool awhile... dar is improving.. practice makes perfect.. boooo and we cooked maggi to eat.. weeee.. sweet ya... hm... its out thrid month..but dono if i can go out tomorrow... booo

writtern @7/02/2006 01:55:00 AM

prelim one over!

Saturday, July 01, 2006

Its been such a few days since i never blog... and i am not getting use to it.. haha.. I was having a real tough time.. struggling through the stuff that i studied again and again but just can't go in.. and donno how to apply...i guess i really need more practice.. i am guilty of not doing much practices.. cause i kept reading... guess i must photocopy more to do.. boooo...
so stress up....

save me....

i wan my IC back... haiz... i don wanna spend unnecessary money on that stupid IC... argh...

i wanna go shopping.. i wanna get a new earphone for my ipod.. and that casing.. maybe the hot pink one.. or the capsule.. but i need money.. haiz... shucks.....

today was a nice day.. except for my bio papers... i think i didn't really do well for my paper3... paper 1... i hope i can like just make it... the previous papers was terrible... expecially chemistry paper 2... i did it badly.. under a terrible condition.. cause i only left 15 minutes to finish the last 4 structure qns... and due to time constraint... i had a mental block.. den after the structure was MCQ... and nothing was left on my mind... i guess i really tikam all the way.. haiz..hope i could pass... i don wanna drop back to F again... boohoooo

met up with michelle eunice charmaine chel min today at lot 1 for a pizza hut session.. had some chats and taken neoprint.. its nice.. haha.. shall scan and put up pics... haven been placing pictures in my blog... i guess not much pple read it too... haha.. oh well.. thanks michelle for my belated birthday present.. cute earings... den after the neoprints.. i went to watch movie with dar... we watched superman... i think its really sweet show...

hm... i donno but superman looks super shuai.. haha =x oops thats not the point.. i think its a nice movie.. haha cause since its a super hero movie.. it should be more unrealistic and predictable.. its so cute.. hm... so wats next up? hm.. just my luck? haha.. dono.. lots of movies to watch man...

long entry... haha... booooo... study or shopping? hm... i wan my earphones and cover.. i wan my money.. and IC... argh...

writtern @7/01/2006 01:02:00 AM

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