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Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Ah ma is gone.... 6 plus tats what my mum told me.. cause she called me at 7 to find my ah ma's IC...

at least i went to see her yesterday at the hospital.. She looks so in pain that i felt so heartpain... But i thought she was going on strong.. i should have went to see her again last night.. my sister friend, doc in NUH, went to take a look at her condition last nite.. she told us it was the bacterial infection at her heel.. and the ulcers on her stomach and body... It sounds so painful.. normal person would have about 14-17 donno wat...forget le..around the body.. den people infected have 20 plus.. my ah ma had 42... T.T i know she held on for very long.. at least for me to see her..

my parents have to rush back home from genting.. i should have stayed beside her..... her hand was so swollen.. her stomach was filled with fluid.. the docs gave her antibiotics.. but i guess she can find ah gong peacefully without all the pain now... ah ma is my dearest family member.. booo i love her so much..

i miss going up to her house at holland v where she can see me downstairs playing the swing.. i miss the times when i ran around the house cause my mum chases me with a cane and she was there for me to hide behind her... she never once hit me.. i miss the times when i was young and ah ma use to bath me.. she would scrub me clean..and me playing with the flabby arms...She uses hot water to rub my mosquitoe bites whenever i have any.. She loves sour plums which she would keep and i would ask her for.. She thought me how to save money and have my own piggy bank ever since i was young.. making sure i saved money.. she makes sure the house was sparkling clean then the maid can rest.. make sure we have good food to eat after everyone finish work and i finish school.. she prays everyday at 6 right at our balcony... she was so fit then.. i miss her voice cause its been so long since i heard her call me poh yun in hokkien.. It was her that i know my hokkien too.. letting her live with my 2nd uncle was the greatest mistake we ever made... i hope she doesn't blame my mum so cause my house is really too small.. but the way they treated her.. i felt so painful... She look so happy and relieve when she see us coming to visit her.. i guess they really treated her badly if not she would have been as healthy as before... she is the best ah ma one can ever have....cause i know she loved my so much too... thanks ah ma for everything...

ah ma can finally meet ah gong again and accompany him.. please dont blame me for not going today.. i need to go for tml's exam.......

no more parties no more enjoyment after exam too...

writtern @4/28/2009 08:20:00 AM

ah ma..

Monday, April 27, 2009

Before i want to blog about my birthday.. I wan to blog about my ah ma.. my dad's mother..

pray that she will be fine and hold on longer.. i am so worried and sad after hearing what my mother told me T.T

how i wish i can fly over to sit beside her now.. y must so many things happen during this exam period.. hm.. i really wan her to be fine...

i love my ah ma so much... T.T she is the person whom loved and teng me the most ever since i was baby.. carried me in her arms.. behind her hunchback.. fed me... played with me.. she was the only company i had when i was young since my age gap with my siblings is so far apart... i really miss the days when she woke up 4.30 in the morning and go exercise with ah gong.. and i followed her.. The days when i was playing cooking.. and i made her "eat" before i will eat.. and she patiently made me eat even if i spent more than an hour....

booo everytime i see healthy elderly i really wish my ah ma was as fit as them again.. cause she used to be... i think the reason behind this shouldn't be said now.. i dont have the power to comment on this but i know in my heart who caused it... i guess there will be retribution de... haiz.. ah ma please stay with me longer...

writtern @4/27/2009 12:26:00 AM

Friday, April 24, 2009

Happy birthday to me.. haha.. 21st le.. nothing special to me actually cause i think i got enough freedom.. but all my closest people like my family and dar made it a special day for me.. and i am so glad to have them celebrating it for me..it makes me feel fortunate enough.. though i dont have a party to invite friends over or watever.. i think it isn't as important as blowing the candles with my family all around me...

Wed 22nd.. went to shokudo at heeren with my family.. everyone was there except more clovee who doesn't want to get up the car.. and my jie fu who was working.. and my sweet sister bought me my fav NYDC chocolate addiction cake.. it's been long since i ate it.. haha.. yup.. we had a great meal.. sharing and mixing all our food.. i am so happy....

den sis gave me an ang bao... haha..

Here's my cake with two big candle and one small one.. which made my poor little nephew confuse.. look at him.

He was asking why only three candle.. den he get so confuse cause they told him Xiao gu is three years old..and of course he can't believe wat he heard.. haha.. cause my brother's 30 this year.. his cake with 3 candles.. caldras is 3 too.. and now i also have 3 candles.. hahaha..

Me.. with my cake...

Sis and me =) and cal turning away just in time -.-"

and my da sao too =)

Den today.. went to find dar.. he gave me my present le.. so tml go out no need carry.. he was so excited to give me cause he bought it yesterday(wed).. just nice he went down town with me for that dinner..
He made me close my eyes and when i saw the bag i dono how to react.. this silly boy spend so much money.. grrr... i nv even entered this shop before but i know its gonna cost a quite a bomb...

burberry..

and he still have the heart to spend the money.. i feel so heartache..

tada.. my new wallet... just nice i really needed one...

>.<

Made in italy.. just nice there was this slip inside saying inspected no.24.. 24!! my birthday date.. haha.. actually i really donno how to appreaciate these branded goods.. cause i think i don have the money.. haha.. the furthest i go for is like maybe coach or guess? then dar say.. i 21 le.. should get me a good branded one.. haha.. thanks dar... hope tml's paper will be ok.. and it will be a great day ahead...

writtern @4/24/2009 12:31:00 AM

Monday, April 20, 2009

hm... sometimes i wonder how much talking would make a couple a healthy and happy one... i guess i am a person who needs someone to listen to me or talk to me or just keep me company...

plans for my birthday= 0 but i don wan parties.. i don wan any celebration.. i just want to relax and pass my exam.. but i am feeling sad... i dono y...

haiz.. what should i do... suan le.. its just a normal day again.. watever or however it is spent.. i just need u.. i really don wan parties or watever shit..

i wan the sea side.. the sea breeze.. boo.....

writtern @4/20/2009 11:36:00 PM

Thursday, April 16, 2009

I am starting not to believe in horoscopes compatibility... i dont find it accurate...

Or maybe its just that Man can never understand what woman thinks and woman can never understand how man thinks as well. I guess only man can understand man and woman can understand woman...

exams are really stressful that i kept having super rancom thoughts as i stone..

I was thinking.. where would a person go when he/she dies and how exactly does it feel? super curious.. does it feel just like how an ant is killed? hm.. is there really a thing call reincarnation?

haha.. crap... i really need motivation and support... i think the only ones who are really concern and supporting my are my parents... appreciate tat they know i am studying.. and its tough for me.. so they dont really pressure me about all these... could you shower me with more (^v^) ?
hm..

another thought... my birthday is so near... i dont even feel it coming.. got no mood nor plans to go anywhere... nothing feels right...

i only feel relax when i study in the lib in sch alone.. when i am doing things other than studying it makes me feel very stressful.. but the truth is that.. i am so playful... boo.. hate it.. why can't i remember the right things at the right time so i can appreciate my good memory... grrrrr

feeling blue.........just like how the weather is like these days.. one day sunny next day thunderstorm

writtern @4/16/2009 12:37:00 AM

RanDom...

Sunday, April 12, 2009

This is what i did yesterday..
Went to teach tuition in the morning.. den dar and i went to watch fast and furious 4..
Its not bad cause quite exciting.. and ya pretty babes with pretty cars.. den went dar house to study.. actually going fishing.. but it was raining heavily.. so i was studyin at his house.. den rain stopped.. we went to yatch club.. i studied while i fish..
was very quiet yesterday after the rain.. no bites.. cause was trying to catch sotongs.. hm..

den when the tide started coming in.. the fishes came..
The first catch!! by uncle..

Super big fat crab who is very fierce.. wants to kiap everything!!

The 2nd catch by another uncle who is damn damn damn lucky to catch this rare fish...
its call golden snapper? ang zou ki? aha has a mole behind de.. very ex and nice fish..... they sell in restaurants..

Then thrid catch by me!! sorry dar.. haha.. cause he left the rod for me wishing me luck.. and i really caught a fish... yeah.. so happy.. so exciting.. anoter sea fish T.T like at last i cause a fish alive!!! haha =p its a mango jack.. can catch it at the taman jurong fishing village. but sea is different cause its more fresh!!!

And this is for Heng pei to see... the uncle caught it with a live prawn... haha sotong!!! yucky black stuff...

The overrall catch... hehe

And this is me holding the sotong.. hahaha..

First sight...

my birthday pressie from parents....beautiful..

Big fat fish.. 4.2kg.. dar caight it.. look at the size of its tail with my feet...

Sharon's birthday cake.. yummy..

with all her candles... placed by me yin si and jenny haha..

Meow.. took it with my iphone..

Heres a top that i love.. from 4eva21.. but i think no more le.. =(

Some pics taken by my iphone.. haha

Cute and pretty clovee... who loves taking photos...

And here is brainy caldras taking his bao bei calculator.. which he came in complaining yesterday that he didnt know where he placed it... haha..

Ok so thats about it..

hm.. things i want to buy:

my skin food nose pack..

moisturiser..

writtern @4/12/2009 02:02:00 PM

unforgettable experience..

Sunday, April 05, 2009

Had a bad day yesterday because....

1) the day before i bought my new slippers.. the sales gal was kind of couldn't be bothered type.. so i asked for my size.. den she gave me 36.. 36 was slightly big.. so i asked for 35 to compare..so i toook off the 35 and 36 and gave back to her saying i wan the 35.. she packed in the box without letting me check.. but i request to check.. so i check one by one to see the jewel on the chain.. but when i went home.. i realise.. she gave me one 36 and one 35.. grrrrrr so i got to get back to her yesterday at far east!! just to change.. super annoying.. cause its damn far la... i wanted meet dar earlier.. den cannot..

2) before i went out.. cal was playing with my iphone... didn't know wat he do.. i cant get back to the original home page.. so i was stuck in contact, fav and keypad view.. but i got it restored after getting back home...

3) which is the worst worst worst of all... i went fishing... then thunder and rain!! super heavy.. so we went to get shelter at inside first.. den they went out.. i was still doing my report... when i joined them.. they wanted to change spot.. cause the tide was coming in... so i helped dar carried the rod.. went to a new spot..den suddenly a fishing hook went straight into my big toe.. near my nail... i was stunned.... cause my right leg stepped on the string and the hook tighten right into my toe.. it was a double hook meaning.. a small hook on the big thick hook!! i screamed for dar covering my face dont dare to look... it was freakin pain.. the feeling is terrible!!!!!!!! really terrible!!!!! dar tried pulling out the hook.. but its really painful that i cried and screamed.. lucky got this experience uncle fishing there too.. he came by after hearing my scream.. he tied my ankle with his handkerchief and pulled out the hook while i screamed in pain.. i felt super weak la.. as if the blood was going to spurt out.. T.T den the manager from the club ask the small car.. forget wats it called.. drove me to the exit while lucky for me.. dar sergent was there and he drove me to the clinic..
doctor say minor injury.. but its damn pain when you try pulling the hook out la.. the after effect was nothing already... He washed my wound.. dressed it... and i got to be vaccinate.. tetanus... cause hook may be contaminated.. like that.. 83 buck.. wtf.. booo thanks dar.. felt so bad.. wasted 83 just like tat... boo hooo....

anyway.. now my toe not tat painful.. my arm with the injection hurts more.. haha.. the after effect of injection zzzz like blue black like tat..

booooo i got to jia you for lab reports.. hm..

writtern @4/05/2009 11:49:00 PM

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

Today.. i bought my iphone.. its charging now.. and i am looking at applications to download for it already.. I wasn't that excited over it actually because finishing my assignment to write a resume seems to be filled in my mind.. not sure if its ok like that but i finally finish it..

dar accompanied me to buy the phone.. and then i bought this leather pouch for it.. but i think its like pretty lousy.. shouldn't have buy it argh.. but this guy very bad lo.. there is this clip for me to take out the sim card.. den he say don lose it.. but he didnt return to me after taking it out from my phone's box.. wth.. anyway.. new no. but only till april 24.. 97217090.. haha.. den i told the guy i ask the guy if they have screen protector for the phone.. then he didnt tell me the pouch i bought already include the screen protector.. i think he like cheat my money la.. booo idiot..

suan le.. i am happy.. cause dar brought me to eat newyork x2 and i ate my salmon sandwich.. he ate his aglio olio and we are both happy because we got to eat candy floss!! only for diners.. haha yeah.. and well his aglio olio seems to have enlarge.. the portion was huge.. and he was totally enjoying his food..

poor dar hurt his toe while playing soccer... and he went to A&E to see doc just now.. had to take x ray and doc said the bone crack.. wanted gave him a week MC.. my god.. hm.. i didnt see how swollen it was cause he was wearing his shoes.. but thanks dar for still accompanying me for the dinner with such a swollen toe.. guess he got to stay home these few days and rest his toe!! >.<>

Oh ya.. Happy april fool day.. hope you all dont get fooled around....

writtern @4/01/2009 03:00:00 AM

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