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Pre exam post!!

Saturday, November 21, 2009

First exam paper neurology is on monday.. and my brain is going crazy studying about itself.. ahhhhh....

here's a follow up pic of my cute little nephew..

Tada... hehe his eyes so big >.<>

Anyway.. went for a Preexam trip? haha went to indonesia.. near batam on friday.. 13th and came back on sunday...

These are the pretty clouds taken on the ferry from tanan merah over to batam.. we were reaching batam already.. and the clouds there are really pretty...
den took another about an hour or so car ride to Elly's kelong..

very similar to malaysia... traffic filled with scooters.. riden by young and old... no traffic lights as well... police everywhere but kind of slacking...

First pretty view of the kelong... they have huge turtles at the sides... and big fishes which they kept...

Another view... with the rooms at the side... its two person to a room.. and hahaha air conditioned!! makes u want to sleep all day rather than fish... -.-" and best a toilet attached... although still no hot water to shower with.. but at least i got clean water rather than sea water...

Pretty eagle kept by the boss.. he has two.. one very very noisy one.. and as one of the uncle say.. lucky the eagle sound terrible.. if not it won't have been around already.. cause get stolen le.. haha

Was raining quite heavily for the whole trip... some period of light rain..den stop.. but the tide too low... and kelong filled with seaweeds which is really irritating....

A picture from insde the room... showing the air con and the window.. hahaha..

And here i am studying rather than relaxing because of the stupid rain outside... my cap... and my colourful book... reading cancer.... read till sleep cause air con very shiock......

This picture got very cute colourful fish.. its blue and yellow... but doesnt eat prawns.. nor fish... think maybe herbivore haha... eat algae.. zzz shows how clear the water is also.. very clear u can see all the fishes swimming.. those small little ones.. but hardly big ones... sad...

I caught a fish.. they call donno wat ka chi... -.-" something like parrot fish.. and dar caught the second fish.. also the biggest among all catch...

Parrot fish... 2kg.. very pretty...

Another picture showing the school of parrot fish swimming across.. donno if u can see...

Random small fish that got on to my big hook.. donno how also.. haha but really cute...and i let it go.. those uncles caught one and bbq it -.-"

Squirrels!! they got a few and i didnt realise.. it was all along just beside that eagle... haha they jump on the cage like disturbing you like that.. so cute...

These catches definitely not ours...huge amount of money paid for all these... you got to rent their boat out which is like 1000+ dollars la... so damn ex................ but the fishes are huge... look at that two stingrays...

well these are our catches.. .very lousy.. but at least got fish hoh!

Me with the parrot fish...

Me with it again... haha

This is a irritating fish that pounces on to the bait with hook... -.-" i was trying to catch a crab when it did this and scare away my crab... diao.. i didnt even want to catch it la... look at those HUGE eyes!! haha.. they all call him dua bak jiu... (hokkien.. big eyes)

Some good fishes like grouper... but small.......

And heres the picture of the first two fishes...left is caught by me!! my first fish..

The family of parrot fish.. haha all different colour.. very nice.. looks like can bring home and feed..

And we did things that we can't do in singapore... Put fireworks!!! hahaha... look.. the thing got lighted up...

and tada.. shoots up to the sky and bam....

two tgt...

synchronise.. haha

Baamm bamm....
We played a shoot 25 continuously one also.. wa.. so scary.. haha but damn nice.. so scary i didnt take any photos.. it shot up horixontally and bam bam bam bam bam.... hahaha..

Another pretty view........opposite from our rooms...

and of course.. of us.....booo angry face again.. zzzz so hard to smile meh.....

i caught another fish on the last night... and brought it home.. haha.. well thats about it... got to go back to study quick......

depression

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Learning about depression and anxiety.. and here i am wondering if i am having any of it...

feel like i am bursting inside...

tired of everything.. of sch..... of all the stupid lab.. of all the long brain consuming lessons...

there seems to be nothing i can hold on to..

smiling seems to be tiring even...

i tell myself to keep holding on.. but its really tiring... i feel like i am putting in so much effort that i feel neglected for who i am... for how much i actually been putting in... i feel taken for granted.....

i guess its time to cool down.. i really hope u will treasure me more... sometimes i really really wonder if u ever ever treasured me because i feel like the ever last thing u will think of... n i hate that feeling...

anyway i really think that its super rude to like listen to music blasting out loud when two pple is going out tgt.. i mean its out of point lo.. den whenever u need to talk den u talk out the stupid plug.. and den u plug back.. its just shows as if you dont want ur friend to talk to you... totally crap right.. unless both really got nothing to talk about.. den i got nothing to say.. if you really want to talk den just stop listening to the music la... what so hard to off that stupid damn thing and listen and talk properly..

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